BREAKTHROUGH

I miss blogging. And I just can't contain the things I' ve learned from the past few weeks. I was given again another great opportunity to attend a seminar called The Breakthrough, I was hesitant to go at first, because i was going through a heartbreak, just got out of a relationship and it wasn't a good one. I've been so stressed for the past few months, I felt that I was being neglected and fooled. I felt that I was a victim, I felt that I have been doomed. I didn't wanna go out, I just kept on crying and crying. God really answers prayers, actually I didn't pray for this seminar, he knew that I needed it, and he used my Tita bonnie so I'd be able to go this seminar (coz it's not that cheap hehe). Actually, it will take me days to write all the things that I've learned  from this seminar, but I just want to share how it changed me, my perspective in life, and how i respond to trials and problems. We all have our bad habits, attitude problems, guilt from that past, hatred, grudges etc. but one thing what this seminar has taught me is life is so simple, problems will come and go, but if we stand firm, if we stand on our post, it can never destroy us. We all have the choice to do better or to stay miserable the rest of our lives. And I have been doing that almost all my life, i let things pull me down, and at the end I hurt myself and the people who are close to my heart. I hurt them so badly because of the decisions I make, I always choose the way out. Just to make it short, I haven't been doing what God has been wanting me to do and that is to trust him, put my worries in his hands. I always forget that God has send his son Jesus Christ to pay for my sins and " it is finished" ; Isaiah 1:18

“Come now, let us settle the matter,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool." I always forget this promise, that now matter how bad i was, no matter what I did, God does not keep records of that things that i did wrong, and he forgets it. 

During the seminar, I heard a lot of different stories even worst than mine, and you'll be shocked to know that these people are earning millions. My first question was how did they do it? how come I'm not earning that? it's because i choose to stay in my comfort zone, I was always scared to do something better, thinking that I'm not good enough, I can't do this and that. I lacked courage, i was always negative. And one thing Russ Juson ( speaker) said that really had an impact on me and that is " I need to change my story". Enough of the dramas, enough of the victim stories, enough of that I always get hurt dramas. I need to step out, because if I won't I won't see things clearly, I won't see the real purpose of this precious life that God has given me. 

I know that it's won't be easy,negativity will somehow find its way to destruct me, but one thing I'm sure about now is that, it won't hurt me and it won't affect me. I won't let it stop me from reaching my goals. 

This is a second chance for me, I know that God will never leave me nor forsake me, he never did. I feel so happy now, full of energy, full of dreams, but trust me it's not easy, it's not easy to break an old habit, but with God there is nothing impossible. Now I have forgiven all the people that caused me pain, and I also asked them to forgive me. I always used to blame others, but we are responsible with our own actions, we always have a choice to do good or keep what we love to do and that is " staying in our comfort zone". Now, I am ready to face life in a very different perspective, i am always excited to wake in the morning, because I'm excited for what God has for me, I am excited to receive his blessings. I know that God is still working on me, he has a wonderful plan for me, and he knows the desires of my heart, i know that the pain, the disappointments will someday turn into a blessing. I just have to be still and know that my God is bigger than all these.

I will leave you this song, it's an old song but it's a great promise has for us:

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still, know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are king over the flood

I will be still, know You are God

Godbless everyone:)